Alone In Kansas

I just typed a really long post that got deleted for some reason. Oh god hates me.

The view outside one of the Windows - Jayhawk towers building A. Sometimes the sounds of the Jackhammers are very very annoying and disruptive. As a matter of fact, it's going on as I type this.

I'm trapped here in these towers, along with Undarmaa and Eleven. No ones' allowed to stay in the towers during Spring Break, ergo, I was chased out of templin. Which sucked alot, if you ask me.

I really didn't want spring break to come. It causes so many uneeded inconviniences. Such as the fact that i'm not gonna get to go party during Spring Break because of the plain fact that there is no one to party with. It's a pretty sad thing if you ask me. Ben isn't here, Katelynn isn't here, Arielle isn't here. Basically, it's a week in an apartment with nothing to do.

Some pictures of Jayhawker towers.

I think it's very Kind of Undarmaa to put me up for a week, otherwise I'd have to be in McCollum, and that's the last place I really want to end up.

Days have been passing so quickly lately. I've lost track of my reality.

Where am I? It's so pissy, I cannot stand it. It's like I'm just stuck in this place where nothing is up nor is anything down. I feel so so lost. :( I HATE MY LIFE.

Well not really. I just feel that I no longer want to be surrounded by people who are by sadly high standards, retarded and immature. I mean, fucking grow up already.

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I don't want to feel like this anymore,

thinking about you everyday, when I wake up, when I sleep.

It's aggravating that I cannot get you out of my head,

even when my friends tell me to think and do things otherwise, 

I feel so helpless.

It's weird how academics are giving me less stress than something isn't even there.

I need help.

I need change.

Ian